– By Terri Fornear
In a way, fighting with Joe against Stage IV cancer was easier for me. It was obvious we were powerless. I had the hearts and support of many. I allowed myself and others to be powerless. I admitted I was powerless over “cancer, Joe, kids, life itself, and that my life had become unmanageable!” Step 1 had come TO me… fast and furious.
Then Joe got well and I slowly felt responsible to live “my life” again!
- I gained 40 pounds and counting!
- I became addicted to “worry and fear” and that wasn’t stopping!
- I was enslaved to people’s opinions of me!
- I was addicted to bitterness toward a false view of God!
My ways weren’t working very well. So three years ago, I decided to get help. I cried out to God for my own life! I admitted I was powerless over myself and others and that I could not manage my own life!
I had known Jesus as the TRUTH and the LIFE, but I needed Him to show me on a daily basis how He is the “WAY.” (John 14:6). He broke down a way to follow Him into steps. It started with looking at myself first – to admit just how powerless I really am.
Do you have a list of things, people, places, experiences which bring out your powerlessness? I invite you to walk with me through the 12 steps to recovery! Make your list and enter into your powerlessness. This first step is the only step without God, yet it is okay to see how you do life without Him in your own strength! If you are ready to let his power in, He will show up in step 2! After all, He says that His yoke is easier and His burden is lighter (Matthew 11:30). Next month, I will discuss Step 2 with you!
Jesus, I love how You woo us into Your WAY of doing Your LIFE!
